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This Site is N.S.F.W - I can't be any more clear. If your Not 18 or older PLEASE MOVE ON!!!! ----------------------------------------------------------------Hi, I'm Ken - From Saint Joseph, Missouri "And I see dumb people.
Walking around like regular people. They don't see each other. They only see what they want to see. They don't know they're dumb. I See them ALL the time. They're everywhere. The boy in "The Sixth Sense" had it easy, Dead people asked for help, Dumb people in real life don't know any better. Ever heard of Dumb Luck? It's real, Some people are REALLY dumb and use theirs up faster the some dumb people. Since you are coming my blog seeking something, I'll give you the benefit of doubt that you are not one of THEM. Please don't prove me wrong -=- THAT was fun, If you stuck with me THIS long you must must be gay too LOL - but my true reason for my gay blog is because of just that fact = I am a Gay man. I was BORN gay,I CHOSE to be straight so I could be a father. I wanted children SO badly I just assumed like the lie I was taught through church, role models, etc. that NO ONE masturbated It was a sin! That turned out to be bullshit, I was NOT the only self gratifiying perv in the world. So, I thought I must Be BI, I was atracted to women, the idea of losing my virginity was VERY important in my male social circles. I even waited till marriage to do it. It was pleasing, but not what I DESIRED. But I did desire to be a father, raise Children. That was real, and is the greatest blessing I'd ever received. To be a parent. LBGT have every right to be parents, They can love JUST as well as straight parents. And SO many children in the world that need to be loved. But I don't want to get started on that right now. My Ex wife is still my hero, because without each other we never could of been so blessed. And I think of her as a friend. But, when we seperated, I was gifted actually with a 2nd chance to to be ME. The Gay me. One of the reasons I Started this blog as kind of my Lust List, (But What I THINK, or Show here dosen't mean I WANT IT ALL - I'm a very level headed, conservitive person. I just just happen to be fasinated with penises lol - but mainly I'm here to meet other Gay Men in the hopes for something more. . I'm a dude, I love to talk sex, Jack off, Chat Sex, Jack off some more. But this small part of my life by story, will help explain ME... I've been with 1 person, My Ex wife. We were virgins, our 1st time was on our wedding night. I was so Scared. So Afraid I'd hurt her. Yeah, I hurt her. She never cried, but asked if I could stop. Could tell she was in pain. I was more than happy too. I Felt awful. I knew I hurt her. So we just laid there holding each other. When I was sure she had fallen asleep. I snuck to the other side of the Suite held a bath towel to my face and sobbed like a baby. I wanted it to be SO special, So perfect and I felt like such a fuck up. the next day before we left on our honeymoon we stopped by her parents to say bye. and she ran to her mom & cried. They went to another room to talk. Again, I felt like a failure. That she must be telling her mom what an awful experience it was and that how badly I had hurt her We left for our honeymoon. Like a 4 hour drive away. Didn't talk a whole lot. Especially about our wedding night. We never even had sex while we were there. Left a couple days early. We just Wanted to get back home. Start fresh at our new place. We were out of excuses I think NOT to make love. Thank god we got sick LOL We were married on Aug 27, We had had sex a couple times now but I NEVER could CUM I thought Something was wrong with me, And yeah there was, I was thinking about it too much. Then It just happened. we got to messing around on Wednesday September 14th,1988 10PM I CAME FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE (With another person in the room)Years later, we talked about our wedding night laughing about how sad it was, and how great sex was now. and I told her about how I went to the bathroom and cried. Cause I had ruined her wedding night and when she ran to her Mom crying the next day I knew I was right. She started crying, shehad ran to her mom crying because she had thought she had ruined my wedding night. We feel asleep crying, but both smiling. We are still close friends, but we are also BOTH gay. Our Family's bigger now, her girlfriend and I hope someday my boyfriend. It's weird how things or LIFE works out. But we wanted to be parents that made our BI scales tip over to straight I guess to make that happen. And have NO REGRETS WHAT SO EVER that we made that happen. Or HOW we made it happen. We both were damn good looking kids, and could have gone to practically any same sex gay bed of our choice. BUT sometimes your parental urges are WAY stronger than your Sexual ones. We have 3 GREAT KIDS as our proof. WE MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE. I wouldn't change a thing OR do I regret that I'm starting late looking for my gay male soul mate in my 40's vs my 20's. I'm a romantic, I have a huge heart. - Seeking same. I'm not a good liar, So I don'tt do it. I think it was Mark Twain who said When You Lie, You have to remember every single thing you say to cover that lie. If you don't lie, you don't have to remember shit. I have a terrible memory, so that works out GREAT for me! lol - I'm told I'm not too terrible looking still ;o) - Ken

STATS: Age:47
Birthday: August 22
Height: 5'11.5"
Weight:176
Eyes:2 (Blue)
Hair: Lt. Brown
Sex:Yes Please
Length: Over 1/2 Foot
Balls: 2 Low Hangers
Relationship Status: Divorced & Single
Children 2 male & 1 female do not live with Daddy.
Sexual Orientation: Bi, but SO prefer Dudes
Missing Body Parts, All Baby Teeth, Wisdom Teeth, Tonsils/Adenoids, Foreskin, 1/2 inch of each Vas Deferens (Google it lol)
Criminal Record 1 speeding ticket, Going 35 in a 25 (Coasting down hill at age 18) Sorry, I'm a rebel!
Please feel free to ask any further questions. I have nothing to hide. - Ken